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I would like to add to this sometime and really write out my thoughts, but for now I will post them in a list type note form....
God's Not Dead - Simple, right? I thought so until I saw the movie and was challenged.
I cried a lot - it started in the previews - one was about a boy that came back from heaven and his journey and describing it to his family...it made me miss my mom.
the movie -
some touching moments:
The muslim girl who was thrown out of her home for her faith. The scene showed her listening to Billy Graham on her ipod and her brother caught her, she told him not to tell. The next scene shows her Dad telling her to deny christ and she refuses. then he kicks her out and you see the dad and her bawling on opposite sides of the door. It really shows the heartache on both sides.
The professor hating God because of pain from his childhood.
The snotty christian girlfriend of boy who challenged professor, having her plans and trying to make him fit in them.
The professor getting hit by a car and getting a second chance to believe in God - grace....what about ALL the people he made state that God is dead? (God is so much bigger than that pain).
The reporter gal with cancer - no hope without God, her boyfriend dumped her.
the duck dynasty couple, faith and God is everything.
the boyfriend of cancer reporter girl - his mom has dementia but God used her to speak to him about pain and comfort and the enemy having diff prisons for people.
the gf of the professor - sister of bf of cancer girl - feeling unequally yoked and belittled for her faith
finally taking a stand, cinderella syndrome.
the pastor - jealous of his missionary friend for being in the trenches, realizes he is right where God placed him in his own trenches.
Then add the sermon from church - voices in my head GOD wants to be the loudest.
More crying from me.
Moses in Exod 4 saying, "I can't....not me...pick someone else, please." - Pastor Peter feeling that way about planting the church.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Deep Struggle...
8-1-14
I lived in southern China for three years. I remember when I picked up enough of the language to catch onto their comments. The first one I recognized was a man on the street yelling out a number. I was with my teacher and asked her if he had just guessed my weight? She was blushing and said yes. (In their culture it's not rude to comment on weight or how much you make or how old you are). I laughed because he was only a pound off in his guessing! I was fairly amazed. There were days I had a hard time with the comments or when hootenanny drivers would not take me up the hill cuz their vehicle couldn't handle my weight. Or I would get stared at for being white and big.
I lived in southern China for three years. I remember when I picked up enough of the language to catch onto their comments. The first one I recognized was a man on the street yelling out a number. I was with my teacher and asked her if he had just guessed my weight? She was blushing and said yes. (In their culture it's not rude to comment on weight or how much you make or how old you are). I laughed because he was only a pound off in his guessing! I was fairly amazed. There were days I had a hard time with the comments or when hootenanny drivers would not take me up the hill cuz their vehicle couldn't handle my weight. Or I would get stared at for being white and big.
Sometimes I would joke with them, sometimes I would be blunt, other times I would ignore them and go home and cry.
How does everyone here get to the point of loving and accepting themselves at any size?
I am loved by many but sometimes fail to see the beauty they can't miss.
8-1-14 comment from above posting that I really was encouraged by and made me think about the last line I wrote in a new light!
8-1-14 comment from above posting that I really was encouraged by and made me think about the last line I wrote in a new light!
Beckster Bu: This. Is. Amazing. "I am loved by many but sometimes fail to see the beauty they can't miss."
Monday, August 11, 2014
Monday morning
8-11-14
It was just like any other early Monday morning. I was at my desk, still groggy and sifting through my To Do list for the day. And of course I was on the phone waiting for help to make my email function, seems like most Mondays this is my routine...today the cause was it didn't want to read my CAC card; usually it is some profile issue. As I was on hold waiting for a rep to take my call, my hubby stopped in front of my desk.
I had the phone on my shoulder, listening to the familiar droning of the elevator music and I looked up at him. He said, "You are my inspiration."
Yup, that definintely did the trick. My day was made, my whole countenance lit up and then he put on his "sexy nerd" glasses and briefly held my hand and then he walked away. Sigh, I am so lucky! :)
In fact, I still can't wipe the smile from my face!
It was just like any other early Monday morning. I was at my desk, still groggy and sifting through my To Do list for the day. And of course I was on the phone waiting for help to make my email function, seems like most Mondays this is my routine...today the cause was it didn't want to read my CAC card; usually it is some profile issue. As I was on hold waiting for a rep to take my call, my hubby stopped in front of my desk.
I had the phone on my shoulder, listening to the familiar droning of the elevator music and I looked up at him. He said, "You are my inspiration."
Yup, that definintely did the trick. My day was made, my whole countenance lit up and then he put on his "sexy nerd" glasses and briefly held my hand and then he walked away. Sigh, I am so lucky! :)
In fact, I still can't wipe the smile from my face!
Friday, July 18, 2014
Friday, June 20, 2014
Sunday, March 16, 2014
Lessons from Legos
2-12-14 I learned a lot from the Lego Movie! I need to see it again because there is a lot more to glean but here are a few things that I am pondering:
"You are the Special" - the way Emmett's eyes, actually whole face, lit up in disbelief when he heard the gal tell him this...his response, "REALLY?! ME?!" - Everyone needs to hear this.
And then the gal being jealous and telling him, "But I wanted to be the Special, I was right there, on top of the Piece de Resistance but then you showed up and it was you." - I remember feeling this way with my Call to China; it was mine so no one else could be called to the BILLIONS of people there because I was, duh. We want to be the special. But who we are not what we do is what makes us each special.
The Master Builders (Batman, Unikitty, etc) building a sub together but not working together and it was a mess. Emmett building his couch and it being the thing that saved them even though it was weird and kinda dumb.
Spaceman getting excited that he FINALLY gets to build a spaceship and no one tells him not to anymore. Spaceship, spaceship, Spaceship!!!
Everything is Awesome - catchy tune but also a great message.
"You are the Special" - the way Emmett's eyes, actually whole face, lit up in disbelief when he heard the gal tell him this...his response, "REALLY?! ME?!" - Everyone needs to hear this.
And then the gal being jealous and telling him, "But I wanted to be the Special, I was right there, on top of the Piece de Resistance but then you showed up and it was you." - I remember feeling this way with my Call to China; it was mine so no one else could be called to the BILLIONS of people there because I was, duh. We want to be the special. But who we are not what we do is what makes us each special.
The Master Builders (Batman, Unikitty, etc) building a sub together but not working together and it was a mess. Emmett building his couch and it being the thing that saved them even though it was weird and kinda dumb.
Spaceman getting excited that he FINALLY gets to build a spaceship and no one tells him not to anymore. Spaceship, spaceship, Spaceship!!!
Everything is Awesome - catchy tune but also a great message.
Everything is awesome Everything is cool when you're part of a team Everything is awesome, when we're living our dream
Everything is better when we stick together Side by side, you and I gonna win forever, let's party forever We're the same, I'm like you, you're like me, we're all working in harmony
Everything is awesome Everything is cool when you're part of a team Everything is awesome, when we're living our dream
(Wooo) 3, 2, 1. GO
Have you heard the news, everyone's talking Life is good 'cause everything's awesome Lost my job, it's a new opportunity More free time for my awesome community
...Stepped in mud, got new brown shoes It's awesome to win, and it's awesome to lose (it's awesome to lose)
Blue skies, bouncy springs We just named you awesome things A nobel prize, a piece of string You know what's awesome, EVERYTHING
...Everything you see, or think, or say Is awesome
Everything is awesome Everything is cool when you're part of a team Everything is awesome, when we're living our dream
Yup, definitely need to see the movie again. :)Blessed
2-19-14 Sometimes I get so busy looking at other's lives and comparing that I forget how amazing mine is!
I am blown away by the beautiful, wonderful, caring, loving, people that God has put in my life through my family and friends. I am so blessed.
It really IS the little things that matter...a kind word at just the right moment, a hug, a text, sometimes just a listening ear, someome to stand with you and at times for you, a card, a flower or a dozen!
Just being there and living life with you, being excited for you and sad with you.
My hubby got me flowers and chocolate for Valentine's Day, even though we had said it is just a day and we don't need anything he brought 2 roses and reeses in the cooler for our trip...I got home to 10 more roses! So thoughtful. :)
My friends have been helping me so much with mourning my Mom's passing. A phone call, a card, a text, letting me call them at any time, emails....just being present - so blessed!
My hubby has been helping me with our new healthy eating lifestyle, he has been holding me and comforting me through my Mom's passing, he is my rock. I love the man more every day I am with him; he never ceases to surprise me with his wisdom and wit. He was so worth the wait; although the wait was tough and I don't wish those struggles on any gal; it really did grow me up into the woman I am now and helped me grab hold of God tight. Even the times I would pound His chest and cry, "it's not fair!" or have temper tantrums and pout to try and get my way and my timing. I look at the gift I have and am blown away.
I am blown away by the beautiful, wonderful, caring, loving, people that God has put in my life through my family and friends. I am so blessed.
It really IS the little things that matter...a kind word at just the right moment, a hug, a text, sometimes just a listening ear, someome to stand with you and at times for you, a card, a flower or a dozen!
Just being there and living life with you, being excited for you and sad with you.
My hubby got me flowers and chocolate for Valentine's Day, even though we had said it is just a day and we don't need anything he brought 2 roses and reeses in the cooler for our trip...I got home to 10 more roses! So thoughtful. :)
My friends have been helping me so much with mourning my Mom's passing. A phone call, a card, a text, letting me call them at any time, emails....just being present - so blessed!
My hubby has been helping me with our new healthy eating lifestyle, he has been holding me and comforting me through my Mom's passing, he is my rock. I love the man more every day I am with him; he never ceases to surprise me with his wisdom and wit. He was so worth the wait; although the wait was tough and I don't wish those struggles on any gal; it really did grow me up into the woman I am now and helped me grab hold of God tight. Even the times I would pound His chest and cry, "it's not fair!" or have temper tantrums and pout to try and get my way and my timing. I look at the gift I have and am blown away.
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